I am deeply moved today because my girl gived me some pocket money as she said before(acturally I cannot believe it comes so quick), not too much, but very warm. yet something happened unexpectedly, and to tell you the truth, I just had no time to persuade myself to keep in peace at that incidental moment, retrospectively I believe I may have taken care of it better, but I was somehow out of control and nobody could tell me what to deal with it. "Boys will be boys"? maybe it cannot be more right.

So what really happened to me today? and what caused that? well, I am sorry, because I am just not in the vein to tell others. what I want to tell you here is that it is miserable, and if possible, i wish it had never happened. However it happens, and i feel a little shamed. But  fortunately i was not blamed by my girl at last, lucky! that's all right. but now i think something has to change from now on. I should learn to adjust and let myself easy to persuade, to keep cool.

Try to do things better, boy. Just do it, come on!